Monday, 18 January 2010
Unfortunately the pain has got worse again over the last few days. We think its because I've come off the steroids so Giles has spoken to the palliative care nurse today and they're happy that I restart them. Apparently it could be the radiotherapy making things worse still but last night I was concerned that the tumour in my spine was growing again, that my legs were worse and that I'd have to go back into hospital. I had my "I don't want to die" breakdown between 12 & 1am when the oxynorm wasn't doing that much and poor Giles really needed to sleep! But when that passed I came round to thinking that I WILL find any how to live. I will always be fighting this.