Tuesday, 30 September 2008
After a weekend of good weather, meeting up with friends and family, many children’s activities, a swift unexpected girlie shopping trip while the children were at a party (dangerous!), we’re still busy! I visited Diana for a third session today. She’s helping me to recognise and challenge my negative thoughts in order to change the way I feel physically. It’s giving me something to focus on – I’ve actually got homework this week! I am not getting my hopes up to receive the active treatment on the trial. In the event that I’m recruited to the monitoring arm I can at least feel I am being constructive by bringing about positive change in my life – something I can control. There is so much hype about Avastin – how it has changed the prognosis for other cancers and how, because of its high costs, Primary Care Trusts are not able to fund it for many of their patients (maybe I’m watching too much daytime TV!). There is no proof that it helps prevent the spread in melanoma – at the moment it’s just a theory so I don’t have to and shouldn’t waste emotional energy if I am not going to be on it.